About Me

My Name is Michelle..

I am a 22 year old mother from Mesa, Arizona.

I started this blog in December 2010, not knowing what it would become or if it would mean anything at all. This site saved me from myself, my self hatred, my insecurities. I can’t explain how grateful I am to so many of you that helped me learn to completely accept myself. I am a whole new person.

I want to share my “journey”, I want to be a voice. I want every one of you that thought you were never good enough, or didn’t matter, or if you’re going through something that may seem unbearable to know that there is someone that walked in your shoes, and I’m here..

I’m all about accepting who you are these days. It’s what made me feel human again. I live for myself, my family, and that’s all I need.

A little background info about myself..

I was born in Phoenix, raised in Mesa, AZ. I ran away from the state at 18 years old. I lived in Florida, Nebraska, Minnesota, and California within the past 2 years of my life.

I had a shitty childhood. I lived my whole life growing up not knowing that I was the one with a different dad until I was 13. My mother never told me. I was always chubby, always. It haunted me my whole life, because in my family and friendships, if you weren’t skinny, you weren’t shit. I never knew that it was just in my genes, because my brother and sister were so skinny. I never knew that it really wasn’t my fault. Since I never knew that I came from another person, I thought it was my fault. I thought I was broken. I was abused, I was an addict, I had an eating disorder, I just wasn’t in a good place living in my home state. All of this was going on and the only person I trusted, my nana, was battling breast cancer. If you don’t know what living with a cancer patient is like, I can tell you that it is absolute torture.

I was told to run..

My nana saw what I was going through and urged me to move with my aunt. I ran away, across the country, without telling my parents. I dropped out of high school. For two years I was on my own. I was in the only relationship with an amazing boy that I was completely in love with.

I got pregnant at the age of 19.

My parents apologized, and I felt like things were getting back on track. I was working, making a lot of money. I had my own place and a beautiful baby girl was on her way.

Weeks after I let my parents know about the baby, my nana was very ill. She passed away before meeting her first great granddaughter. It still kills me to this day.

Life just became real once that all happened. I realized that I needed to find who I was, what I wanted and make something of myself.

Of course this is the condensed version of my “story”..

I had many ups and downs the past 3 years. I am finally in a good place with my life and everyone in it. I currently live in Omaha, Nebraska with my boyfriend of 3 years, and my 2 year old daughter. I am a stay at home mother.

If you have any questions whatsoever I am completely open to anything you have to ask. Thank you for following<3

My Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/michella.de.vil

All photo’s belong to me. These were all taken at different times in my life. From 1989-2011 This is me :)